grilled cheese and pointless conversations

today I was talking to my friend (not the evil one) and she pointed out that this will be the first time in five years that I'm not single on christmas and she asked if I would miss being able to kiss anyone I wanted under the mistletoe. I told that I can still kiss whoever I want because he's the only one I want to be kissing. sadly he's not here for me to kiss and I really wish he was. we've been fighting and I really just want to be with him right now