salty revalations

ok so everyone knows what salt is right? oh god I hope so. it looks like sugar but it tastes horrid. but put it on french fries, or mashed potatoes, or anything really and it's amazing, the food isn't as good without it. that's how Virus and I are, when we're apart we kinda suck, but together we're amazing. so why can't we be together? oh right cuz stupid government said no -_-

sittin here, writing to you

so here I am. sitting in an empty room, writing in a little purle book. writing letters he may never read. words he may never know excisted. and somehow, it makes me feel a little better. my family is staring to worry about why I never leave my room besides to do chores and school, but I feel better. I really do. maybe it's cuz I know that somehow we'll get through this and he will read those letters...if this is gonna go on for five months I need more notebooks -_-

grrr

I hate the government -_- a no contact order is to protect the victim from however the no contact is put on I was not a victim nor was Virus so a no contact should not have been put on us right? right. no contacts are also used in cases of sexual misconduct, assult, or stalking. none of which happened with us so they have no right to put us on no contact its not fair!

fuck you all

so yesterday kinda sucked...ok it really sucked like majorly much..it sucked more than your mom (yeah I said it) Virus got a no contact so we can't see, talk to, email, or contact each other in anyway for FIVE FUCKING MONTHS!!!!!!!!!! WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THESE PEOPLE?!?!??!? "oh they ran away to be together? let's tell them they can't have any contact or acknowledge each other's existence for five months" how the fuck do they think this is going to help at all??? all of this is so stupid I don't even know if I can live five months without him...

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school sucks -_-

I started school last week it sucks...a lot

FUCK YOOOUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

grr I hate humans all of them humans deserve to burn very, VERY slowly -_- I got to see Virus today ^_^ but we didn't get to hang out -_- cuz stupid Stepfather in-law is a bitch -_-

RAWR!!!!

I told you so :P I'm only posting this cuz virus was saying I never post anything....so...yeah

...gr

that is all I have to say today just "gr" soo....gr

violence is always the answer

if violence isn't solving all your problems you're not using it right. so I get on my facebook today, and I find out someone hacked it and sent a message to Virus saying that I hate him and I was only using him. he knows it wasn't me, he knows I wouldn't do that. but I want to know who the fuck it was and kill them...no not kill them just make them wish they were dead.

family. can't live with them, it's illegal to kill them

I hate my family I try to explain something I get yelled at, I try to help I get yelled at, I try to lock myself in my room and  not talk to anyone I get yelled at, I try to get along with them I get yelled at. is there anything I can do not to get yelled at???

we're looking for something we really don't want to find

so my life went from epicly amazingly fatasicly perfect to horribly terribly, drasticly suckish...I don't even know how it happened it just kinda did we started talking and it just went from there. we always end up fighting and I hate it, I don't want to fight with you cuz I know what'll happen and it's not something I want. I don't want us to end up like everyone else I want us to be happy. are we happy? will we ever be happy??

I miss you

we all have issues. we might always have issues but we shouldn't let our little personal issues make big relationship issue so I'll do anything to fix this cuz it's my fault and I don't care if you say it's not, cuz it is. it's my fault I can't talk to you (or anyone else) and it's my fault for even bringing it up when I knew I couldn't tell you. I miss you, I miss us, how we used to be, we didn't have any issues before, we were happy. what changed? why did we let it change? I want us back. can we do that??

FIRE!

so nothing interesting has happened for a few days...but there's a fire about eight (8) miles from my house right now and the wind is blowing towards us...so Ima die XD but Virus said if our house burns down I can come live with him ^_^

I'm such a fucking pain junkie

I was freaking out to my friend about my boyfriend issues and she, being the random quote monkey she is, said "don't fall in love, fall off a bridge it hurts less" and I started laughing cuz I'm a pain junkie and she knows it. then we got into a conversation about sex but I won't get into that XD but all my boyfriend issues are over now we got everything worked out and we is happy again ^_^

pain, tears, and more pain

I don't think I've ever cried as much as I did last night. Virus and I are having slight relationship issues and we're working though it...slowly. I hate hearing his voice like that, it physically hurts. I want to wake up in the morning and find out this was all a dream, that none of this happened. I wish I could go back in time...that would fix all my issues

home...nothin to do

chillin at home, talkin to me peeps on facebook, waiting for the dreaded phone call from Mr.lawyer man, not wearing panties, being cold, I'm really not doing much of anything today...

blarg

had an aweosme day yesterday. and now I'm going to a wedding -_- my brother's wedding >_<

fuck this shit

I hate this shithole little town I want to go do something amazing, but I might not get the chance. cuz the dumbass cops of this shithole town are fucking stupid and have no idea what the fuck they're doing.

amazing bordering on perfection

so we had our prom thing last night. it was amazing even if only a few people showed up. we had a lot of fun and almost died a few times. and the cheesecake was amazing ^_^  it was awesome! we got wet ^_^

HI!!

I almost got ran over today!!! it was amazing!!!!! the guy that almost ran me over is in my auto tech class...and my math class. he's strange, but cool.

awesome day, Anti-Prom, stalker

I had an amazing day today! I finished my ISAT's, I got lit on fire, I planned Anti Prom, and I ran away from a stalker. it was all pretty epic.

the strangers we've become

everyone changes. if you could go back in time 5 years (assuming you're not like 5 or something) you wouldn't recognize yourself that's how much we change. in such a small time as two weeks we can become strangers to ourselves, two weeks ago I would never have had these toxic thoughts. I had nothing to do, I didn't want to kill anyone, and I had an amazingly perfect relationship. today? I'm doing my ISAT's,  I wish I could kill more than half the people I know, and I still have an amazingly perfect relationship. so only one thing remained unchanged. it's not really much change but you get my point. sooo....what's new in your life?

LOVE

I've fallen in love with the strangest boy I've ever met. I will fight until my last breath to protect him. We've made mistakes. We've gotten a little lost. I wouldn't trade a second with him for anything. We've fought a bit. He's the only one I'll ever love. I would trade my own life if it would save his. I regret nothing.

RAWR!

I've had a few issues over the last few days but it's all good now. so whats up in all ya'll's lives? ya know what? I really don't care so don't answer that. you wouldn't have anyway. cuz you're not nice :'( but everything is awesome and I'm going swimming next weekend with my sexy beast (AKA Virus) I need to make sure my swimsuit still fits.....soooo.....RAWR!

yaoi for my english class

I wrote a short story for english and it kinda turned into yaoi ^_^ it was just to easy to turn it into yaoi. so I did and it's awesome. it's not like hardcore yaoi just implied yaoi.  so in other news I lit my pocket on fire. it was AWESOME!

why must life suck so much?

I am so sick of life right now. some may think I had an awesome day, and I did. that's not why I hate life, it's the price at which I got that amazing day. some friends in Boise wanted me to hang out with them today and we had it all planned out, but Virus called. I never get to hang out with him anymore so I want to be with him every chance I get. so I called my friend and told him I couldn't hang out with them today cuz I was gonna hang out with Virus. they got all pissed off at me and yelled at me for ditching them to get laid (I kinda was but that's beside the point.) then that bitch actually had the nerve to call me after virus left and ask if I wanted to hang out tomorrow. WTF??? you were just telling me I'm a whore and I should never talk to you again!!! fuck off you pathetic little child.

fuck you fate

I'm pissed off at life right now. My family hates me, Virus' family hates me and oh they might be sending him to live with his grandma! an entire country away! it's bad enough that we live 30 some miles apart I don't know what I'd do if I couldn't see him at least once a week it would be like living without air or some equally cheesy, romantic line -_- I hate cheesy romance. but I'll say it anyway XP in other news, food is amazing, food isn't like people. people piss you off, food makes it alllll better ^_^

I was once a good kid

I've been thinking a lot lately...mostly cuz that's all I could do. I've been grounded and I haven't been able to go much of anywhere. so as I was saying, I've been thinking and I've realized how much I've changed in the last year. I've gone from being a typical American teenager to something like this. I was a "good" kid, I did my homework, stayed in school. then everything changed. I was hanging out with the smokers and the drugies, I skipped school, I even ran away. I've been thinking about how I've changed and why. I'm not saying that it's a bad thing that I've changed I'm just wanting to know why it happens. maybe I'm just growing up...what do you think?

GAH!

stupid fucking cop! stupid fucking people that know me! stupid fucking family!! I fucking hate this state it's police force and my family! GAHHHHH!!!!!!

why do nightmares suck so much?

I've been having horrid nightmares lately. like wake up bleeding with scratch marks on my arms nightmares. and it suuccckkksssss

perfection

that is truly the only way to describe my day it was amazing, perfect. it was kinda pathetic though...I had his hand chained and I had total control (mostly) yet he was still worried about forcing me to do something I didn't want to do, as if he actually could in that position. but it was amazing even if he's insanely paranoid. I love it when he begs ^_^ even if he sucks at it...

today already sucks -_-

I have nothing to do today! the day is half over and all I've done is read spider man, kill shit on a facebook game, and feed cricket (my baby lamb)!!! it even sucked before I got out of bed. I woke up and I had huge scratch marks on my arms. I have no idea what I was draming about but it must have been pretty bad for me to claw at my arms like that.

and so search begins

I've left my pack. I was sick of all the painful memories and stupid people. so I left them. and now they have no alpha XD I kinda feel bad about leaving without someone ready to take my place as leader. but they'll figure something out. I kinda feel strange without a pack but I'll find a new one. I'll start a whole new pack if I have to. I will have the best pack in the history of ever!! we'll be a happy little family

I think I'm alive...but I'm not quite sure

I might have died last night...but I don't think so. but there's still that possibility that we both froze to death last night and now we're in heaven or hell or where ever the fuck they want to send us. I slept for like 12 hours -_- it kinda sucked I can't figure out how much of this morning was real and how much was a dream. pretty sure the drowning was a dream. and the fires. and most of the blood. but I can't be sure.

GAH!

nothing happened today! Virus couldn't come over, I made taffy, it was groos

bored...

I really have nothing to talk about today cuz nothing happened!!! Virus might come over and hang out tomorrow so that's epic but other than that nothing is going on this weekend

we all have to come down sometime

I've had an amazing week but today was kinda...blah. I went to all my classes and I didn't get to see virus cuz he's sick :( and even if we all got high in english today it wasn't as fun as I wanted my day to be

amazing ^_^

my ex stop bugging me, I got a new mp3 player thingy, and I'm dropping out of auto tech. so I'm feeling amazing right now. A little sore, but still amazing. and I've got grape juice ^_^ everything is better with grape juice...well maybe not everything...but most things

life kinda sucks but thats why we have friends

sooo...my ex is still bugging me and a bunch of my friends have offered to kill him ^_^ it's sweet that they care enough to do that for me but I can take care of myself so I'll just kick his ass if he ever gets the guts to actually talk to me in person instead of on the phone or on facebook and I know I can kick his ass cuz I taught him everything he knows about fighting. in other news Virus won't be at school tomorrow so I shall be sad and hang out with other friends

birthday blues

my birthday was amazing. I hung out with Virus, got some epic kickboxing shit, and some cake. but today kinda sucked, my ex (the bitch that cheated on me) called me today saying he wanted me back and that I deserved so much better than "that scrawny little whore" (his words not mine) and I feel horrible saying that if I wasn't with Virus I would've gone back to him. it's not just having a boyfriend thats stopping me if it was anyone else I would leave them and go back but since I started going out with Virus I've started thinking differtly and I do deserve better than that scrawrny little whore but he's the whore not Virus sooooooo..............my day sucked...how was yours??

I'M BACK!

ok so since I haven't posted in forevers I'll fill you in on all the exciting happenings of my life I got grounded and was bored for eons, then school started again and I was all distracted once more, then I went to Battle of the bands to support my amazing boyfriend's amazing band they were awsome, most of the other bands sucked but Her Beauty Beheld was pretty epic. so thats been my life for the last few weeks...pretty boring it's been eons and I've done almost nothing

perfect

I bet all y'all are wondering what I did last night ain't ya? well I ain't tellin'! ok well I'll tell you that we watched some movies and ate swedish fish and other candy and we kissed at midnight...kinda